So, I've been feeling a bit alone/lonely these days. I have almost nobody to talk to when I'm not working or sleeping. I often feel like I have hardly any or friends or don't have "enough". Any friends that I do have are often "busy". Often, when I go on facebook and start a convo, I often feel paranoid like I am bothering them - as though they are reluctant to speak to me. at other times they do not reply at all.. Is it really too much to ask for a bit of friendship and company?
All this loneliness is driving me mad, I swear. I want and Need to meet new people.
I suppose this is the part where I need to tell you readers a bit more about myself (I haven't really done that yet, I think). So, here goes:
My Name is Akhtaab (most people call me Akh), I was born in England but I am of Indian Descent. I am also muslim (but not a fully practising one) - I feel like my ethnicity, my upbringing and my religion have held me back a little in life. I have been victim of overt and covert racism in the past, and I suppose that has led me to be overcautious about other people, it made me develop a "me against them" mindset. I know not everyone in the world is a racist but I wish I was just given a fair chance with people. It would help that I socialized more in general, but I feel like I dont have the time :\
i am aged 22, University graduate (degree in Maths and Computer science) and as of writing this, I never had a girlfriend. I have a job as a software/web developer.
I don't have a huge amount of interests. I don;t play sport and I'm not that good at art. Actually, i'm not quite sure there's anything that I'm really good at :\
I spend a lot of my free time playing Yugioh Online (using YGOPro software).
I suppose I do enjoy laughing and trying to make other people laugh (sometimes it doesn't work >_<). I like various types of comedy. I also like attempting accents and impressions and find myself watching a lot of youtube videos of people doing such stuff
If you are interested in conversing with me some more, feel free to add me on fb, or drop a message/note here and I'd be happy to talk.
thanks for reading